Next time,

when you're feeling jelous or having heartaches cuz of me layaning other girls,
don't be upset about it.
when i care bout how you felt even we're not attatch,
i distance myself away from other girls.
when the girls nak kenal2 and all, i told you im attatch to who. ?
Farhanah.
pathetic me , i know. its just that i don't like to see that someone i love dearly get heartaches over this kind of things.
what i know is that , you still does the things that will make me jelous and all.
nevermind , we're seperated right? nothing much that i can do.

maybe i should just move on with my life huh .
i should get back to the old me, mixing with the opp gender, having fun, going out with my friends and all.
if you can, why can't i?

when i bring this up to you, what happen?
we will fight/argue/quarrel again.
no point right?

so if you're having the good life, maybe i should too.
saying the word i love you, saying you still have the feelings to me, its just words.
Actions do speak louder than words , dear. =)
Would you like if i say i love you many times but behind your back i go out with other girls... layaning them.. be it msg/msn/facebook/meet-up and all . does it make sense? no right?
Who wants their love ones to get hurt ?
I Understand you're feelings . Im not saying im a good guy. Im not.
The foul words i throw at you and your friends , its because of anger right at that point of time? Nevermind if mama and your fam hates me. That was my mistake.
Everytime when we're attatch, i know i asked for breakups here and there. Because of what? Jelousy. I admit. Im a jelous guy . You won't like it if i go out with a girl which i claim a friend of mine. I know you're a very bubbly girl. Can get along real well with the guys. But if you love me, you'll know your distance right?

There are limits. Asking guy to send you home? Going back with ure guy friend? SMSing with some guy ? Facebook - private msging with another guy? To you maybe you think its a small matter. But to me, it shows that you don't care bout my feelings.
Remember after we argue BIG TIME, you dropped ure hp and it got spoilt? I Meet you early in the morning before work to lend u my phone, what did i get? You read my msg and you say you no need use my hp, u're friend wants to lend you. You know how i felt? Nvm. So after work i had to quickly get the phone from you? Yep.

If i don't show my attitude when u do such things it simply shows that i dont even give a dam about you right? I Don't think you see it. But nevermind .

To NurFarhanah,
It has been almost 2 years we're still in contact, it was really really meaningful and joyous feeling. You're a great girlfriend any guy would want to have . You're personality, you're a child yourself, all those punching pinching kicking. Well kept memories. The day we were at ecp, that was the memorable as so as when we were at Sentosa. The love i have for you never stop . But now, im unsure . Wishing you all the best in life . Takecare. 191008 will still be remembered.
It really was a rollercoaster ride for us right? Well there are best and the worst times =)
Every relationship isnt perfect, its about understanding and caring for one another's feelings. =)

Lastly, i wanna apologise for all this things.
-Not being the best boyfriend for you
-Causing you heartaches cuz of my attitude and jelousy
-Not understandable/reasonable
-Not being a perfect guy
-Not supportive
-Giving false hope/empty promises
-My presence in your life.
To sum it all up. Im sorry for everything .

All the best in your future endeavours. Take care. You'll be remembered.

Labels: Good old times.

Its all clear to me now. =)
Wishing you all the best.

You never knew i guess. =)
You know that leaving you would be my last resort
Still you're wanting me to do it.
Well enough said, as much as i still love you,
we'll go our seperate ways.
What a waste. =)

Done .

Labels: All the best

If you only knew how much i love you .
Guess i failed to make you realise how much i do love you .
All the best.

Labels: it brought an impact to my heart., Speechless

Love =)

<3

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Ima stop blogging,
Ima stop chasing after you,
Ima stop bothering your life,
Ima stop be by you knowing that u're afraid u're friends sees me being with you,
Ima stop asking you out,
Ima stop it all.
But im not sure i can stop loving and missing you.

I See no point in doing all those things,
I Planned to meet up with you, you're afraid your friends to see both of us together
You asked me hide from them, Let me ask you.
When you msg me, saying you love me, you're scared of losing me, you miss me, you wanna hug me all those things, only i know but you're hiding it from your friends.

Have you ever thought why your bestfriend is back with his guy after all those arguments and vulgarities at her blog but doesnt allow you to be with me? Selfish right?
Well, it doesnt matter , no matter how much i say, you're still gonna follow her right?
Its okay, you dont have to worry bout losing me or whatsoever.
Come to think of it, if you're worried bout losing me, you have lost me long time ago, why did i still bothered to entertain your msges, asking you out etc. ?
When im doing all those things, what i get is being treated like somekind of ....... ?
You dont want your friends to know im meeting you, you dont want your friends to know you still msg me, you dont want your friends to know you still love me.
If so, why bothered saying that you still love me? You're scared to loose me?
I Really dont understand. You don't like me to do this and that, to wear this or that, but you? You can do/wear such things? Tell me how am i going to understand that?
Remember this msg? "Kalau sape2 tanye you kalau you maseh ngan i ke tak, ape you reply?"
"I akan jawab yang i Maseh ngan you uhs". But what happen during the past? I Tried answering that, but you gave me a stunning answer when i sent the msg to the wrong person, "Ape shaky lagi? Dah break pon dah..." Hahaha, It feels like i got a good hard punch directly to my face la can?
Remember this msg when u're on your trip? "I Rindu you sangatt la b !! tak sabar nak balek mcm nak peluk you kuat2 gitu ! Rindu sampai terbawak2 dalam mimpi seh !" Remember?
What does it shows?
Look, if you're embarrassed bout being with me, msg-ing with me, meeting up with me, loving me , embarrassed that your friends might know, then ill stop right here, i wont go on further, i wont bother your life.

Anyone not happy with my post, just keep it to yourself, dont needa reply my post on your blog, this is only meant for someone, i dont wish to see others involving this as well.


Whatever it is, I Would wanna wish you Best of luck, Takecare of yourself.

Labels: but you are a someone to me, I Know im not someone to you

Labels: I Wonder..

Labels: Love you Farhanah =)